Showing posts with label Harry Potter. Show all posts
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Thursday, 21 September 2017

Harry Potter and the Cursed Child: accessibility review


I have now seen the above play twice, and though it was about time I wrote an access review for Autistic on Wheels, from both the autism and wheelchair perspectives.

Please note: this is not a review of the play itself, and although there will be some slight references to content, they shouldn't spoil anything for those who haven't read/seen it. And I really don't want to get into a debate here about whether or not Cursed Child is canon.

I'll be honest, I didn't expect to see the play this soon, certainly not twice in less than 6 months! A couple of my friends booked tickets nearly 18 months ago; I booked the first time in early January. By then I'd already read the playscript, because a) I didn't know if/when I'd get round to seeing it; b) I have zero restraint when it comes to Potter stuff!

I initially went on February 15th (both parts in the same day) with my husband, using Christmas money. He's not particularly into Harry Potter but his background is theatre and from what I'd read of it, I had a feeling he'd enjoy it. And he really did! I enjoyed it so much I wanted to see it again, and the first person I thought of was Amy, my husband's cousin's girlfriend who has become a friend in her own right (she really wanted to see CC; he's not into theatre or HP so he really didn't). Asking her if she wanted to see it with me is possibly one of the easiest-to-answer questions I've ever asked! She and I did the two consecutive evenings (part 1 Thursday 27th July, part 2 Friday 28th).

Price

(Of tickets, not the surname of the actor who originally played Draco! Who, by the way, was absolutely stupendous and I'm a little peeved with the reviews that barely acknowledge his part because he was so fantastic; the media attention was, of course, on Harry, Ron and Hermione.)

There is an "Access Rate" ticket cost that is £140 for 2 people for both parts. This works out at £35 per person per part, and may sound a lot but if you're booking the wheelchair seat, is rather cheaper than what the people sitting around you in the main auditorium will have paid! Also, it's an excellent price considering this is the West End. The Access Rate doesn't, as far as I'm aware, cover just the wheelchair seats; if I remember correctly it covers all disabilities if you require any kind of support/assistance from another person. There are 2 specific wheelchair spaces, at either end of row Q. 

Booking

There is a specific telephone line for booking disabled-access tickets, separate from the main booking options. It's available on the CC website but if you can't find it, there's a specific email address you can use to inquire about access and they're happy to supply the phone number. I emailed them about a year ago because I wanted to know about disabled access should I ever want to attend, and they were swift to reply, ensuring I had the phone number and answering all my questions thoroughly.

When I called the dedicated access number there was no irritating hold music (the DWP is - ironically - particularly bad for this). The people I spoke to were very good and clear with information. On both booking occasions I was given a couple of options for dates, and the staff member was able to reserve two or three date options (held for 72 hours) while I checked with Gideon/Amy.

Although the able-bodied seats are all sold out till December 2018, there is availability for wheelchair seats (also, sometimes people can't make it at the last minute so return their tickets for resale). Saturdays and Wednesdays, when they do both parts in the same day, are almost all sold out but the consecutive-days option is more flexible, and that was the option Amy and I went for, as she's a primary-school teacher and at the time of booking didn't have the 2017-18 academic year term dates, so Wednesdays were out. It's definitely worth giving them a call. Gideon and I managed to get a Wednesday performance, which I really wanted to do at the time, partly because I thought it would be more immersive but also on a practical level, as the nearest Tube station was not (at the time of booking) wheelchair-accessible, so we wanted to minimise how many times we'd have to haul the chair up and down stairs and escalators.

Visual impairment: audio-description availability is not standard; there are specific performances for this that have to be booked (I don't know how many of these performances there are but I get the impression there aren't many). As theatre is a live medium, they have someone describing live, so each performance is going to vary slightly, thus they presumably can't just have pre-programmed/recorded headsets like at the cinema. There are headsets for the audio descriptions; presumably they have to be booked in advance. Guide dogs are welcomed, according to the website, and they advise sitting in an aisle seat for comfort and they have a dog-sitting service if it is easier for you (they recommend advance booking for this, presumably due to staff availability and space limitations).

Deaf/hard-of-hearing: According to the CC website the theatre uses a Williams Sound hearing assistance system and headsets are provided, on a first-come-first serve basis. It doesn't state how many headsets there are. The box office is fitted with a loop system. There are specific captioned performances using StageText. Again, it doesn't say on the website how many of these there are, but I imagine those tickets get snapped up pretty quickly. One question I asked when I phoned in January to book, as someone working towards becoming a BSL interpreter, was whether they had any signed performances. To date, there are none planned, which I find pretty shocking and appalling, considering how many Deaf BSL users there are in the country (Deaf access to theatre is woefully inadequate). I understand that in some ways it could be considered a big undertaking, because it's a two-part play, but if they haven't even considered it or decided it would be too difficult, that's appalling. Yes, it would be incredibly exhausting for the same interpreter to do both parts in the same day (and theatre interpreting is exhausting), but surely they could either book two (one for part 1, another for part 2) - though that wouldn't be ideal because it would interfere with continuity and immersion as every signer has their own particular style, same as every speaking person has their individual voice - or do it on the Thursday/Friday?

Autism/neurodivergent/additional needs/etc: Apparently there are some special, more relaxed performances that allow more coming and going from the auditorium for individuals as needed; again, the best way to find out about these and book them is contacting the access office. There is also a quiet room where the play can be watched on a screen if the auditorium isn't a viable option.

Getting there

Car: There is no parking near the theatre (because this is central London). If you aren't able to manage public transport there's a plethora of taxis. I've never used a taxi in London with the wheelchair but I suspect, like anywhere else, there are some amazing ones and there are also some that are...less than considerate/accommodating.

Bus: There are several different buses that stop near the theatre: 4, 19, 24, 29, 38 and 176. Timetables and routes can be found through the TfL website. (TfL = Transport for London, and includes buses, trains, Tube, water buses, trams and any other form of public transport.)

Tube: The nearest stations are Leicester Square (Northern and Piccadilly lines), Piccadilly Circus (Bakerloo and Piccadilly) and Tottenham Court Road (Central and Northern). Of these three, Tottenham Court Road is the only one that's wheelchair-accessible, and that's only recent - since about a week before I went to see CC the first time! All three stations are pretty hectic, because it's central London, so if you have major issues with that, noise-cancelling headphones would be an excellent plan! I'm actually OK with it, I can cope with it in small doses, I think mainly because I grew up with it so I learned to cope. If you're doing consecutive days, I would advise travelling into the area prior to rush hour (which starts around 4/4.15pm) and getting food near the theatre (there are plenty of places to eat, many of which are wheelchair-accessible and autistic-friendly).

Train: Charing Cross is the nearest mainline station. Not sure what its accessibility is like.

Both times I used the Tube. I stayed with my parents, who live out on the east end of the Central line, so it was easy enough for Mum to drop me at Woodford, which is accessible (no accessible toilet) and it was straight through to TCR, so for me it was a really easy journey.

Whichever form of transport you choose, allow plenty of travel time in case of breakdowns, heavy traffic and unexpected/unplanned events (usually a broken down train on the Tube!)

Ticket collection

On both occasions we collected our tickets at the box office. I didn't ask about having the tickets sent out but if it is easier (and for some people it will be) it's worth asking if that's an option for the Access Rate tickets. If you are looking at the front of the theatre, the box office is round the left-hand side.

Don't leave it until really close to doors-opening to collect your tickets as there will be a queue and the box office is pretty small and only has 3 desks! The first time (both parts in the same day), we picked up our tickets at about 11.30am because I wanted to get it done before it got too busy, and the second time we picked up our tickets at about 2pm (2x evening performances). There were only a couple of other patrons at those times.

There's a small step up into the box office (maximum 3 inches but probably closer to two). I manage steps like that easily but if you are struggling, the staff are happy to help. The desks are all, frustratingly, at able-bodied-standing height. You do need your booking reference to collect your tickets! It only takes a minute or two to do the actual collection bit (not including waiting your turn).

Accessing the theatre

If you're a wheelchair user, you can't access the foyer (2 or 3 steps up from the street, 2 or 3 huge steps down to the auditorium). Instead, there is a side-entrance specifically for those who cannot manage the steps or stand in a queue for a long time, on the same side of the theatre as the box office. You should arrive at the theatre about an hour before the performance is due to start (and they start promptly) and make yourself known to the staff that you have access needs. They do search your bag pretty thoroughly, and they'll do that there, and then they'll contact the access-door staff (via headset) to let them know you're coming. Both times it was smoothly and respectfully carried out.

The access door again has a slight step up to it, about the same as the box office, and there's a ramp. You get to be the first into the theatre! I really enjoyed this because I got to spend a bit more time than my able-bodied counterparts soaking up the architecture, design, etc and it meant I had a bit of quiet time (which, after the manic busyness that is London, was much needed) to decompress before hordes of people flowed in. And also get even more excited than I already was, if that was possible!

You can choose to transfer into your seat from your wheelchair and have your chair stowed, or you can stay in your chair; if the latter, the seats in the wheelchair spaces are removed by the staff. I generally prefer staying in my chair for several reasons:
  • because it's a very comfortable chair 
  • I don't have to worry about the armrests being uncomfortable (my elbows are particularly bad for fibro tender spots)
  • the feel of the fabric on my skin (a lot of theatre seats are covered in a velvety-like fabric that is quite painful to my hypersensitive skin (partly because of the fibro but mainly because of my autistic hypersensitivity to EVERYTHING)
  • I don't have to try to negotiate the long-debated issue that nobody seems to know the correct answer to of which seat does each armrest belong to and how do you decide on who gets to use it between you and the person next to you, especially when it's a complete stranger! 
  • I have a temperamental bladder (always have done - I think it's at least partly due to autism-related anxiety issues - but the fibro and ME have made it a lot worse) and IBS issues that seem to be fibro-related, so being able to get to the loo quickly and suddenly is essential; fortunately I've not had any issues thus far but I'd rather be prepared. If you choose to transfer out of your chair you have to get someone to bring your chair to you to get to the loo, and for me I don't always have that time to spare. By staying in my chair it means I can go to the loo mid-performance if I need to, a) without bothering anyone else; and b) it might make the difference between getting there on time and having an accident.
 For me, staying in my chair means several fewer things I have to worry and stress about and allows me to focus more fully on my enjoyment of the show.

There is quite a steep slope from the back of the auditorium to the wheelchair seats; if I hadn't hung on tightly to my push-rims it could have got a bit messy! If you don't have the strength to control your chair I'd advise your companion helps you with it and if they can't the staff are happy to assist.

The view of the stage is very slightly reduced due to balcony overhang from above, but you don't miss anything other than a bit of the set, as it's the top corner that's blocked.

The accessible toilet is just on your left as you go in through the access entrance. It's up a bit of a steep slope so again, if you have difficulties with slopes, get someone (a companion or staff) to help. It's not ideal but it is a Victorian-era theatre so disabled access wasn't really a thing to consider back then. The toilet itself has decent grab-rails and plenty of room for a standard chair. It should easily accommodate power chairs, too. There's also a decent amount of space for a carer.

If you want to buy a programme (which I did both times because the cast changed in May (mostly - a couple of the actors stayed on in their original roles and a couple moved to bigger roles, such as James Howard, who was originally background and one of the covers for the main adult roles, becoming the main actor for Draco)), they're on sale in the foyer, which you can't access. The staff are happy to get it for you or get one of the programme sellers to come to you. All the merchandise is also in the foyer, which was frustrating (particularly because the second time I thought about getting a hoodie, and I wasn't sure which size to get - Amy ended up buying one so as we're similar proportions I tried hers on!) Again, drinks are in the foyer. As with programmes, staff are happy to get them for you and if I remember correctly ditto for merchandise.

I cannot praise the staff enough; they looked after me so well! They treated me like a competent adult, offered to help but not in a patronising way and didn't ask "Are you sure?" repeatedly like a lot of people do when their offer is declined, made it clear that they were able to help should I require it but didn't push it on me, didn't grab my chair without permission, ensured I knew where the toilet was, checked the wheelchair shelf for the seating area (needed due to the slope of the auditorium) was secure and were generally fantastic. By the time it was departure time after part 2 I wanted to hug them all! I did ensure they knew they'd been fantastic and I still need to write to the theatre to let them know. Because I do think it's important to tell places when they get it right, not just when they get it wrong.

The play itself

I won't go into detail of the contents/story because of #keepthesecrets and this isn't a review of the actual play (acting, characters, plot, etc).

Each section (part 1 first half, part 1 second half, part 2 first half, part 2 second half) is an hour and ten minutes long. I'm glad it's not much longer because of the bladder issues. I can concentrate for hours on something I enjoy and am immersed in and the only things that are capable of interrupting me tend to be bladder and bowels!

Everyone's speech was really clear, which was good.

There is a particular item that is used several times by various characters, and every time it's activated there's a pulse wave that goes out through the theatre. You can actually see the air rippling a little. It was mildly uncomfortable for a few seconds so could potentially cause distressing discomfort for some, although I was able to shake it off quickly because it wasn't too problematic and I was enjoying the play so much.

One creature that's featured in one section of the play makes a high-pitched squeal/shriek and it was a little painful for my hypersensitive ears; I'd anticipated that noise because I'd already read the play and so knew they were coming and because once they appeared I was prepared for it.

The flashes of light for the spells were very bright so I did have to blink several times to clear my vision, but it was very effective in terms of visual effects.

There is, thankfully, no use of strobe lighting in Cursed Child. I don't have epilepsy so it doesn't affect me that way, but it does make me very woozy and disorientated, so that was a big relief! If I remember correctly they did mention when I booked that strobe isn't used.

It's not relevant now (except for any readers who are considering going to see CC on Broadway when it opens there next year) because the cast has changed, but I did find myself recoiling backwards a little on several occasions when Jamie Parker (original Harry; will be reprising the role on Broadway, along with the original actors for Ron, Hermione, Ginny, Draco, Scorpius and Albus) went to the more extreme ends of the emotional range (that's actually a good thing because Harry's always been a very emotionally extreme and volatile character)! Just the sheer power and intensity of the emotions. It was fantastic stuff. Jamie Glover (current Harry) plays him a bit more restrained than that so I didn't have that reaction in July.

And Scorpius. I love Scorpius Malfoy! When I originally read the script he struck me as quite Aspie, and both Anthony Boyle (original) and Samuel Blenkin (current) play him that way. I don't know if it's intentional but to be fair, because of the way he comes across just from the text, it makes sense. He reminds me so much of myself! There's one point where he's literally bouncing in excitement because he's having a massive fanboy moment and Blenkin played him as barely restraining himself from full-on handflapping, and Boyle wasn't far off it, either! At some point when I do the posts on possibly-autistic characters, Scorpius is going to be one of them. It's great to see such a likeable possibly-autistic character for once.

I do wish I'd been more decisive and clear about maybe hanging back afterwards to meet the cast (they generally do that at the stage door after the shows). Actually pretty annoyed with myself, but there's nothing I can do about it now.

I highly recommend it. It's spectacular theatre, everything about it was absolutely FANTASTIC, the access is pretty good and the staff do everything they can to maximise your comfort and enjoyment.

Useful information:

Nimax Theatres accessibility (select "Palace")

CC Your questions answered




Monday, 26 June 2017

Harry Potter, autism and me: Harry Potter 20th anniversary

#HarryPotter20

Today marks the 20th anniversary of the release of Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone (or Sorcerer's Stone, if you're American), and the world is celebrating it. And rightly so. This series of books is one of the most popular, loved and powerful in the world.

"Harry Potter? But I thought this was an autism blog!" I hear you cry in confusion.

It is an autism blog. But for me, the two are intrinsically linked. So I'm going to give you the background and then elaborate. It's not perfectly polished and I suspect I've not thought of everything I want to say (I'd like to write a neater, better-structured, more polished article in future, one that's as comprehensive as possible, one I'm not trying to bash out in 3 or 4 hours, but this is the original for HarryPotter20 to get it out on time while it's still June 26th).

And I'm a proud Hufflepuff.

Background

I was 16 and in Year 11 (that's 5th year, OWL year, in Potter-speak) when my schoolfriend Meng Yun first introduced me to the books because she thought I'd enjoy them. At this point only the first four were out (this was late 2000). I raced through PS and for Christmas that year Meng Yun gave me Chamber of Secrets, which I also devoured. It didn't take me long to get through Prisoner of Azkaban and then Goblet of Fire. And then I had to wait! Order of the Phoenix was released at midnight after my last A-Level exam (a 2 1/2-hour English Lit paper) so I went down (having persuaded my father to drive me) to the local WHSmith to pick it up - I was so eager to get it! There were only a few people there, and I only knew about it because a couple of people from school worked there. It took me about 8 hours to get through (I skim-read, as much as a dyslexic can skim-read (undiagnosed at the time)). It was a bit more hectic in 2005 when Half Blood Prince came out - again, I went down for the midnight release, which was a bit more bustling this time as it was actually advertised. Then, in 2007, the final instalment, Deathly Hallows, came out; I went down, again to WHSmith, with my friend Tammy, this time in costume, and met Aaron and Freyja (primary-school friends of mine and siblings; we're probably distantly related as we have the same surname and family from the same parts of the county) there. It was packed this time! When Tammy and I got back to my parents' we forced ourselves to go to bed and then spent most of the next day curled up in my bedroom with noses in our respective copies. And that was it, the entire story available, and there would be no more late-night book releases in costume. The end of an era in some respects.

Life happened. I never fell out of love with this amazing world, but other things and interests took up my time so I spent far less time in this world.

Then Cursed Child happened. I don't want to get into a debate here over whether or not we should accept it as canon, plot flaws, quibbles, etc because this post isn't about that. CC was released last July (2016) and this time my poor husband got dragged down in costume to the big Waterstone's in Exeter for a launch party (with all kinds of games, quizzes, etc,10pm-midnight, at which point the playscript in book format was released, if you'd pre-ordered). It was a lot of fun! So bang! I tumbled straight back into the world as hard and fast as before! Since then I've done the Harry Potter studio tour at Leavesden (went for my birthday), went to an exhibition in Newton Abbot (it's now on tour) of art from the new illustrated editions and even managed to go and see CC in the West End (with the original cast, no less; and I'm going again next month!) My poor husband isn't anywhere near as into HP as I am so he's having to put up with quite a lot!

Harry Potter, autism and me

Harry Potter has been a significant part of my world for half my life now. During that time I have written (and am still writing) quite a bit of HP fanfiction, dressed up and made some lifelong friends. Katharina, who I've mentioned before, is like a sister to me and one of my best friends, and we originally met through HP fanfic! One of the things I enjoy about fanfic is that it's an opportunity to explore the world and characters in it, maybe try to understand it and them better.

It's one of my Aspie special interests. Pretty much everyone who knows me will tell you I'm a rolling Harry Potter encyclopedia and I can talk about it for hours. And hours. And hours! (And maybe days...) Gideon and I once spent most of a drive from Exeter to Southampton (2 1/2 hours) discussing the complexities of Narcissa Malfoy, and there was still more we could have said.

JK Rowling's writing has always been very vivid, vibrant and visual, which works really well with my autistic, visually-wired brain. There are some books I've read where I couldn't visualise the characters, the world, etc very well, and that tends to put me off those books. I need to be able to visualise to fully enjoy a book or world.

Being autistic in a neurotypical-oriented world, especially being an undiagnosed and unidentified autistic in that world, meant that I was constantly the outsider, constantly confused by things that other people understood and were comfortable with, constantly uncomfortable and out-of-place in a world where others were comfortable, at home and fitted in. I didn't fit in, and there were social rules, concepts and expectations that people assumed I knew, so when I got it wrong it brought bafflement and scorn upon me. So Harry, particularly in PS, really resonated with me. He was the outsider, the one who didn't fit in, the one to whom things didn't make sense. Like me, he was bullied. He was in this world where he did not belong; so was I. He was different from everyone around him; so was I. We both knew this, yet neither of us understood why.

And then we were introduced to these entire worlds we'd known nothing about. For Harry, it was the wizarding world; for me, it was the autistic world. Suddenly the strange things that didn't make sense before, made sense and had an explanation - for Harry, it was odd occurrences like ending up on the school roof or the glass vanishing from the snake enclosure; for me it was sensory overloads, meltdowns, misunderstandings, being mocked and targeted because everyone (including myself) picked up that I was different. Harry found out he was a wizard; I found out I was autistic.

And then we realised that there was a world to which we belonged! That revelation is life-changing, it really is. There were explanations for why we were the way we were, there was a community to which we belonged, there was a world where things made sense for what felt like the first time ever. And we both embraced our respective worlds.

There was terminology to get our heads around, things we'd never come across before, new kinds of people, but they were part of that world and we absorbed them sponge-like (though I think it's safe to say I do a lot more reading and active research about a lot of aspects of my world than Harry does about his!)

There's the assumption from other people that because you're part of a community or a world, you know all the rules, conventions and so on, but that's not always the case. Magical folk assumed that because Harry was born into that world, he knew certain things that he didn't, because he grew up in the Muggle world (Voldemort, Hogwarts houses, currency, etc); I've had people assume that I know everything about autism (I wish! Though it's something I'm working on) because they've assumed I was diagnosed young (I was 28 when I was diagnosed) and grew up in that world. We've had to find our own way, and to an extent we're still doing that.

We've both discovered that the world to which we belong isn't perfect. Both worlds have bullies, presumptions, hierarchies, bigotry and an us-v-them mentality - for Harry, there is the pureblood-superiority attitude as demonstrated by people like the Malfoys (though the war does drastically change Draco's viewpoint on that particular subject, ultimately causing him to completely reject and abandon it); for me, I've encountered autistics who are convinced we're the master race and eminently superior to NTs, people who think that those of us who are classed as "high-functioning" aren't really autistic and thus don't belong in the community, and then there are the Autism Warrior Parents (AWPs). But we're both trying to improve our worlds, and work together with people on that.

It's not just Harry. I feel a real connection with Hermione (my LiveJournal - which I should really update at some point...! - is called Hermione's Hideout) because we have so much in common: a desire to learn EVERYTHING ABOUT EVERYTHING in our world, our academic ability and an enjoyment of it, perfectionist tendencies, overachiever, thought of as a bit odd by others, and determined and driven to forge our path in a way that makes a positive difference to the wider community.

There are marginalised characters in Harry's world, and I've always found myself drawn to them, especially Remus Lupin and Severus Snape. Like Lupin, I've been (and realistically still am in some ways - although I'm white and cisgender, I'm also bisexual, female, physically disabled and autistic) on the margins, shunned and pushed aside, considered lesser because of who and what I am - in JKR's world, werewolves are considered to be monsters, less than human, and there are so many people out there who consider autistics to be, if not monsters (though some do see us that way), at least less-than-human, not deserving of the same rights as NTs.

Like Snape, I was bullied by the popular kids because I was odd. I wouldn't be at all surprised if he has a history of self-harm etc. I didn't really have many friends when I was younger because most people wanted nothing to do with me, due to my oddness and social difficulties.

I love Luna! She's wacky, odd and very much dances to her own tune. She doesn't care what other people think about her - she's aware of it, although she doesn't often let on, but she generally doesn't let it bother her - and lives her life the way she wants to, whilst being as kind as possible to everyone. I very much try to take that approach these days; in some ways I wish I'd encountered her earlier because that might have made it a bit easier to metaphorically stick two fingers up to the people who made my life hell and I might have done it sooner, but ah well, it didn't work out that way. I got there in the end. I really hope young people, particularly autistics, follow her example.

Also, Harry Potter saved my life. Literally. Because I was an undiagnosed autistic, I was different (though I didn't at the time know why), everyone picked up on it and many of them made life hell for me because of it. They didn't know or understand why I was different from them - it didn't matter - only that I was, so they made my life hell. I was bullied throughout secondary school, mainly through snide comments and exclusion. There wasn't much physical bullying involved, just the occasional trip, elbow or shove in the corridor, or strategic kicks to the back of a chair or stool; it was much more in typical girl-bullying fashion. I might post in more detail another time, but the short story is that I was severely depressed for most of my time at secondary school. I started self-harming when I was 15 and was suicidal for quite a lot of Lower Sixth.

[As I said on a previous post, Liz Morris, Sarah Jones (family of mine), and Ann Libby and Sue Foster and any other friends of my parents, if you're reading this, please don't say anything to my parents about this because they to this day don't know about it, and I'd like to keep it that way.]

And this is where JK Rowling and her creation saved my life. I don't remember much of Lower 6th because I was so depressed, but I do remember being actively suicidal and there was a point where I was about to attempt suicide when a little voice in my head said, "But if you kill yourself now, you'll never find out what happens in the fifth Harry Potter book. Or the sixth or seventh books." That pulled me up short. I moved the blade just far enough away from my wrist. I thought about it again and the words echoed around my head. I can't remember if I then self-harmed instead of attempting suicide - I can't remember what I did; all I remember is those words and that I did not attempt suicide that night. Where those words came from, I can't be sure. I'm Catholic, so my view is that it was God. Readers of this blog who aren't Christian may well have different opinions. The important thing is that that voice stopped me and I didn't try to kill myself.

I feel like I've missed some things, but this is fairly long!

In summary, Harry Potter has been, and continues to be, massively significant and influential in my life. I've made some amazing, lifelong friends through this fictional world. I see parallels between Harry discovering the wizarding world and myself discovering the autistic world, finding out who and what we really are; I've found characters with whom I really identify and resonate; and it literally saved my life at one point.

Here's to the next 20 years and more of Harry!